Hey look at this! I'm updating! It's only been a ..... century or two. I've completed my first year of school, I've moved back home with my parents, I've not done a damn thing otherwise. It's my summer though, so I either get to look for work, or help myself go insane. All good eh?

Date:	2004-09-21 14:27
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	The Beatles

Massive boredom overcomes me. We still don't have textbooks for this class, so we do next to nothing. Of course she gave us a handout, and then proceeded to read it to us. *sigh*
Now it's off to my 'power learning' class. Which of course I'm going to get homework in. I guess I'll just go to my parents' place tomorrow night or something. I also need to remember to call the psychiatrist that I'm supposed to be trying to see. We'll see. I feel like a drone most days... not really sure if I'll have the constitution to keep myself awake the whole day. Every day I struggle that way. Fade in and out; zoning. At least I get to go home in an hour... ish...
Home to sit down. Maybe have some dinner. Get out of these clothes. Get cozy...

My school hasn't ordered the book my teacher deemed required for this course, so I'm sitting here with yet another hour to waste before my wonderful 'power learning' class. The joys of being in college. Homework in this class. Homework in math. I think that's it. I've almost passed out in every single one of my classes today. I'm really not sure how long I'm going to prevail over my 'issue' at this rate. All I ever want to do is lay down. Don't feel so hot about not being able to give so much attention to someone, but I made the choice to be here; so I'm sticking to it. I wonder what shall be done about my situation with my doctor? I'm to see a psychiatrist. I'm also supposed to eat more, since I 'obviously' have some debilitating eating disorder. What's that called again? oh, right! "PRIDE". Anyways, since I've got so much time to stand around and waste here at school, I've been reading Nietzsche. Right now it's 'the genealogy of morals', and I've found quite a few similarities to my thought processes. I think once I've read through this one, and the other two I have at my disposal, I'll reread it and highlight certain passages that I feel pertain to me. Y'know, the type of thing you do when you have an obscene amount of time on your hand and nothing worthwhile to study. This is getting long, so I'm going to go do something else if that's possible.

ps. this was brought to you on a 'millenium falcon computer'

I'm in college now. Oooh a college boy! So this means I've got a bus pass. Not so much time to use it though. My doctor still pisses me off and won't fix me. I'm still living with the Liona. I'm tired as fuck all the time, but I'm happy.
Anyways, now that I've made some effort to prove my existence, here's a little visual action from my brother's going away party.

( Visuals Are Here )

Date:	2004-06-10 14:31
Subject:	Taedium Vitae
Security:	Public
Mood:	apathetic
Music:	Once in a Lifetime johnny quest mix - wolfsheim

It seems that keeping my head intact has become increasingly difficult in recent times. There are certain things that I have trouble ignoring after a while, and in order to avoid tearing someone apart I'm obligated to go let my mind wander in peace. I don't know where things are headed, but I do know that my head is freaking out more and more often. Where is it leading me? What is it trying to tell me? This I know of but few details. I know I'm oblivious, but are you too? I need to nap...

Well folks..... here I am. Alive and such, stealing some time on the computer at my parents' place. I tend to just hide around my house, playing video games, and I really don't know what else I do. Chores? Eat? Fuck the cat?
I'm still contactable, I just don't seem to get on here quite as often. Usually a 2-4 day grace period should be given, depending on the time of the week. I try to be here wednesdays for the gym, and then at least one other random day. You local folk know I'm at the club as oft as possible. This friday I'm in windsor for a suspension show at the zebra, and hopefully I'm back on saturday...
Anyhoo, i'm boring and getting distracted by my music.

Date:	2004-03-31 15:24
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	www.theelectricfront.com

My birthday, as expected, wasn't very exciting. I came home and got yelled at for not saying hello right away. Never did make it to the gym, sadly. Cut the cake , and then got taken out to get dinner. I ate it and then ran away like I do on so many nights. Right now I'm nursing wounds from this weekend. Did a 2pt chest & 2pt knees suspension. Threw my own right knee, which was very amusing. I think I giggled like a madman throughout most of the event... I'm home again, in order to go to the gym. Tomorrow is my friend's son's birthday, then friday is Becky's going away party at Rick and Geoff's place.. and saturday is club night. I'm not sure how many of you read this anymore anyways. I'm gonna go get a drink

Date:	2004-03-23 19:26
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper
Music:	Psychotica - Little Prince

Tomorrow's my birthday. Which means you love me and want to buy me this.

Date:	2004-03-19 19:22
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	thankful

Well I'm really busy right now, getting ready for this evening, and I haven't even stopped to eat yet. But I wanted to come online to say I'm still alive.. and I got a really neat package from someone in the mail. I'm listening to the cd from it right now. Very pleasant surprise to come home to...

My birthday's in 5 days. Yes. the 24th. What does Adam want? More pretty clothes and technicare. Maybe some mustad #9's... I go find food now.

I'm still somewhat under the weather... sinus issues mostly. I'm going over to ralph's tonight, as I've not spent much time with him lately. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get off my ass and get some other things done, like applying for school and getting a doctor's appointment. I'm going to be doing a cleanse again soon, I feel it's rather necessary. Other than all this I don't have so much to report. I spend a great deal of time hiding at Liona's, being comfy, and making lame attempts at calming/helping her. Right now is dedicated to showering all quick like. I wish I had more than 10-15 minutes of hot water here... (my next shower will most likely be somewhere where I don't have to feel so rushed...)

Date:	2004-03-09 21:47
Subject:	Cheer up Pookie
Security:	Public
Mood:	crazy
Music:	Funker vogt - Date of expiration (Fresh)

I've been gone gone gone, gone so long! I think listening to oldies radio all night put me in an odd mood. Either way. I'm home.. for a couple days. Maybe. I need to register (or attempt to) for school tomorrow. Then go to the gym... maybe hit owen's concert? I hope so. They're good. I really don't have all that much to update. I've just been hiding out at Liona's. Maybe I'll keep her sane........ maybe I'll push her over the edge..... maybe I'll win the fucking lottery and not have to live my life??? Anyways; off to eat more and pester the mister. ( meep )

I haven't been home much lately. Sorry to those of you that I actually enjoy talking to, but it seems I have alot of things in my life I need to sort out. Which basically means i've been playing video games and ignoring the fact that i'll soon be on the street. Go me! As for right now I need to shower, maybe shave or something. Maybe burn a few cds.

Date:	2004-03-02 16:05
Subject:	Weekend? What's that?
Security:	Public
Mood:	frustrated
Music:	Oomph! - Atem

I went over to ralph's last night, so we could take some stuff back to rogers. We chatted with neil for a bit, because he's awesome, and then we went and got subs. We rented baseketball because we needed a good laugh. Today I'm most likely going to Rob's place so he can draw on me. Maybe one of these days I'll actually get my tattoo design completed...

I'm not sure what I'll be doing tonight, maybe Liona will come on and ask for some company *cough cough* But other than that, maybe I'll get stuck sitting on this stupid computer some more. I think it's about high time I put on some loud music and had a shower. My vocal chords need an ultraspanking.

Date:	2004-03-02 15:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	calm
Music:	Santa Esmeralda - Don't Let Me Be Misunderstood

Has anyone else here watched the movie Underworld? What were your thoughts on it?
Personally, I thought it was one of the worse movies I've seen recently. Not quite as amazingly crappy as Daredevil, but a close second. The only thing decent in the movie was the wardrobe. I honestly can't say anything else good about it.

So today is gym day. I've been filling my time with fixing all of my music. I deleted over a gig, which will make my computer happy. Now all I need to do is get the rest of my files and I can burn a few cds and delete more space. How exciting can my life get...

Date:	2004-03-01 01:46
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	crushed
Music:	Mary J Blige - GOD DAMN TV SUCKS

Yes I'm home..... except that I'm not. I'm going to ralph's after I fill my gullet. I'm addicted to this damn computer, and yet so bored with everything about it. Effort in futility... DW here I come.

Friday - Rob's housewarming party. ( here's lookin at you kid! )
Amazing time was had by all I'm sure.

Saturday - Fetish Masquerade played a show. Very good. Then some movie watching was done... Daredevil = worst piece of shit movie I've seen in ages.

Sunday - no sleep. movies. peach juice.

Monday - Bath... still no sleep. Fell while walking home, which equates to a bruised posterior hip.

Aren't my posts so interesting and detailed?

p.s. You're my favourite....

Date:	2004-02-30 16:20
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	indescribable
Music:	None

That's right, I've been avoiding you all. I've been at a friend's place for the last few days, and once i'm done a few things around here I'm leaving again. Ralph needs some entertainment, and I need to go celebrate Wayne's World Day.
Granted I do miss my amusing banter with a select few of you. xox

Date:	2004-02-28 22:38
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	exhausted
Music:	None

Okay, a few more things are fixed with the computer. Only a few things left. Go me!!
Friday night I'm off to Rob's place for his little house party. Saturday night I'm off to Stonehenge (upstairs) to see Owen's band play...

There's an open invitation for people to join me at either.

Date:	2004-02-28 21:10
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sore
Music:	Nick Cave - Mack the Knife

Well it seems that things are mostly fixed. Except for the whole thing about my computer living in the past. I'm locked out of my control panel, therefore I can't tell it that it's NOT 1999. Guess it really felt my desire to be back in the 90's. I just got in from the gym, and I'm tired. I think I need to be pampered...

Date:	2004-02-27 06:52
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	none

My computer is broken. says i need a boot disk, which i'm attempting to get a hold of one. right now i'm on my brothers laptop, which sucks. so i might not be around too much in the near future.