majinadam

oh my god!

Tue, 03 May 2005 13:52:58 GMT

Hey look at this! I'm updating! It's only been a ..... century or two. I've completed my first year of school, I've moved back home with my parents, I've not done a damn thing otherwise. It's my summer though, so I either get to look for work, or help myself go insane. All good eh?

Tue, 21 Sep 2004 18:32:27 GMT

Massive boredom overcomes me. We still don't have textbooks for this class, so we do next to nothing. Of course she gave us a handout, and then proceeded to read it to us. *sigh*
Now it's off to my 'power learning' class. Which of course I'm going to get homework in. I guess I'll just go to my parents' place tomorrow night or something. I also need to remember to call the psychiatrist that I'm supposed to be trying to see. We'll see. I feel like a drone most days... not really sure if I'll have the constitution to keep myself awake the whole day. Every day I struggle that way. Fade in and out; zoning. At least I get to go home in an hour... ish...
Home to sit down. Maybe have some dinner. Get out of these clothes. Get cozy...

comp... short for incompetent.

Tue, 14 Sep 2004 18:08:27 GMT

My school hasn't ordered the book my teacher deemed required for this course, so I'm sitting here with yet another hour to waste before my wonderful 'power learning' class. The joys of being in college. Homework in this class. Homework in math. I think that's it. I've almost passed out in every single one of my classes today. I'm really not sure how long I'm going to prevail over my 'issue' at this rate. All I ever want to do is lay down. Don't feel so hot about not being able to give so much attention to someone, but I made the choice to be here; so I'm sticking to it. I wonder what shall be done about my situation with my doctor? I'm to see a psychiatrist. I'm also supposed to eat more, since I 'obviously' have some debilitating eating disorder. What's that called again? oh, right! "PRIDE". Anyways, since I've got so much time to stand around and waste here at school, I've been reading Nietzsche. Right now it's 'the genealogy of morals', and I've found quite a few similarities to my thought processes. I think once I've read through this one, and the other two I have at my disposal, I'll reread it and highlight certain passages that I feel pertain to me. Y'know, the type of thing you do when you have an obscene amount of time on your hand and nothing worthwhile to study. This is getting long, so I'm going to go do something else if that's possible.

ps. this was brought to you on a 'millenium falcon computer'

Hmph

Fri, 10 Sep 2004 21:08:16 GMT

I'm in college now. Oooh a college boy! So this means I've got a bus pass. Not so much time to use it though. My doctor still pisses me off and won't fix me. I'm still living with the Liona. I'm tired as fuck all the time, but I'm happy.
Anyways, now that I've made some effort to prove my existence, here's a little visual action from my brother's going away party.

OK, These pictures were taken in the deadly sun, which just so happened to be right in front of me. Can't see a damn thing.

This one, who has a misshapen head? ME!

These two are just.. me. with my ponytail braid thing. I liked it.

Yeah, here you can see very well that I'm lacking the eyebrows. Thumbs up!

Taedium Vitae

Thu, 10 Jun 2004 18:41:51 GMT

It seems that keeping my head intact has become increasingly difficult in recent times. There are certain things that I have trouble ignoring after a while, and in order to avoid tearing someone apart I'm obligated to go let my mind wander in peace. I don't know where things are headed, but I do know that my head is freaking out more and more often. Where is it leading me? What is it trying to tell me? This I know of but few details. I know I'm oblivious, but are you too? I need to nap...

Tue, 04 May 2004 14:20:05 GMT

Well folks..... here I am. Alive and such, stealing some time on the computer at my parents' place. I tend to just hide around my house, playing video games, and I really don't know what else I do. Chores? Eat? Fuck the cat?
I'm still contactable, I just don't seem to get on here quite as often. Usually a 2-4 day grace period should be given, depending on the time of the week. I try to be here wednesdays for the gym, and then at least one other random day. You local folk know I'm at the club as oft as possible. This friday I'm in windsor for a suspension show at the zebra, and hopefully I'm back on saturday...
Anyhoo, i'm boring and getting distracted by my music.

Wed, 31 Mar 2004 20:30:09 GMT

My birthday, as expected, wasn't very exciting. I came home and got yelled at for not saying hello right away. Never did make it to the gym, sadly. Cut the cake , and then got taken out to get dinner. I ate it and then ran away like I do on so many nights. Right now I'm nursing wounds from this weekend. Did a 2pt chest & 2pt knees suspension. Threw my own right knee, which was very amusing. I think I giggled like a madman throughout most of the event... I'm home again, in order to go to the gym. Tomorrow is my friend's son's birthday, then friday is Becky's going away party at Rick and Geoff's place.. and saturday is club night. I'm not sure how many of you read this anymore anyways. I'm gonna go get a drink

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 00:29:39 GMT

Tomorrow's my birthday. Which means you love me and want to buy me this.

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 00:26:16 GMT

Well I'm really busy right now, getting ready for this evening, and I haven't even stopped to eat yet. But I wanted to come online to say I'm still alive.. and I got a really neat package from someone in the mail. I'm listening to the cd from it right now. Very pleasant surprise to come home to...

My birthday's in 5 days. Yes. the 24th. What does Adam want? More pretty clothes and technicare. Maybe some mustad #9's... I go find food now.

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 23:53:08 GMT

I'm still somewhat under the weather... sinus issues mostly. I'm going over to ralph's tonight, as I've not spent much time with him lately. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get off my ass and get some other things done, like applying for school and getting a doctor's appointment. I'm going to be doing a cleanse again soon, I feel it's rather necessary. Other than all this I don't have so much to report. I spend a great deal of time hiding at Liona's, being comfy, and making lame attempts at calming/helping her. Right now is dedicated to showering all quick like. I wish I had more than 10-15 minutes of hot water here... (my next shower will most likely be somewhere where I don't have to feel so rushed...)

Cheer up Pookie

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 03:00:00 GMT

I've been gone gone gone, gone so long! I think listening to oldies radio all night put me in an odd mood. Either way. I'm home.. for a couple days. Maybe. I need to register (or attempt to) for school tomorrow. Then go to the gym... maybe hit owen's concert? I hope so. They're good. I really don't have all that much to update. I've just been hiding out at Liona's. Maybe I'll keep her sane........ maybe I'll push her over the edge..... maybe I'll win the fucking lottery and not have to live my life??? Anyways; off to eat more and pester the mister. http://img14.photobucket.com/albums/v42/majinadam/owenadam.jpg

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 00:25:55 GMT

I haven't been home much lately. Sorry to those of you that I actually enjoy talking to, but it seems I have alot of things in my life I need to sort out. Which basically means i've been playing video games and ignoring the fact that i'll soon be on the street. Go me! As for right now I need to shower, maybe shave or something. Maybe burn a few cds.

Weekend? What's that?

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 17:07:30 GMT

I went over to ralph's last night, so we could take some stuff back to rogers. We chatted with neil for a bit, because he's awesome, and then we went and got subs. We rented baseketball because we needed a good laugh. Today I'm most likely going to Rob's place so he can draw on me. Maybe one of these days I'll actually get my tattoo design completed...

I'm not sure what I'll be doing tonight, maybe Liona will come on and ask for some company *cough cough* But other than that, maybe I'll get stuck sitting on this stupid computer some more. I think it's about high time I put on some loud music and had a shower. My vocal chords need an ultraspanking.

Wed, 18 Feb 2004 20:28:54 GMT

Has anyone else here watched the movie Underworld? What were your thoughts on it?
Personally, I thought it was one of the worse movies I've seen recently. Not quite as amazingly crappy as Daredevil, but a close second. The only thing decent in the movie was the wardrobe. I honestly can't say anything else good about it.

So today is gym day. I've been filling my time with fixing all of my music. I deleted over a gig, which will make my computer happy. Now all I need to do is get the rest of my files and I can burn a few cds and delete more space. How exciting can my life get...

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 02:48:21 GMT

Yes I'm home..... except that I'm not. I'm going to ralph's after I fill my gullet. I'm addicted to this damn computer, and yet so bored with everything about it. Effort in futility... DW here I come.

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 21:19:55 GMT

That's right, I've been avoiding you all. I've been at a friend's place for the last few days, and once i'm done a few things around here I'm leaving again. Ralph needs some entertainment, and I need to go celebrate Wayne's World Day.
Granted I do miss my amusing banter with a select few of you. xox

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 21:51:11 GMT

Friday - Rob's housewarming party.
Amazing time was had by all I'm sure.

Saturday - Fetish Masquerade played a show. Very good. Then some movie watching was done... Daredevil = worst piece of shit movie I've seen in ages.

Sunday - no sleep. movies. peach juice.

Monday - Bath... still no sleep. Fell while walking home, which equates to a bruised posterior hip.

Aren't my posts so interesting and detailed?

p.s. You're my favourite....

Fri, 06 Feb 2004 03:37:40 GMT

Okay, a few more things are fixed with the computer. Only a few things left. Go me!!
Friday night I'm off to Rob's place for his little house party. Saturday night I'm off to Stonehenge (upstairs) to see Owen's band play...

There's an open invitation for people to join me at either.

Thu, 05 Feb 2004 02:19:37 GMT

Well it seems that things are mostly fixed. Except for the whole thing about my computer living in the past. I'm locked out of my control panel, therefore I can't tell it that it's NOT 1999. Guess it really felt my desire to be back in the 90's. I just got in from the gym, and I'm tired. I think I need to be pampered...

Wed, 04 Feb 2004 11:55:55 GMT

My computer is broken. says i need a boot disk, which i'm attempting to get a hold of one. right now i'm on my brothers laptop, which sucks. so i might not be around too much in the near future.

Cynical

Tue, 03 Feb 2004 00:07:21 GMT

I have a question. Please answer it, and maybe get others to answer it too. What I want to know is: Why is it when something's done to a child, it's suddenly so much worse than if it were done to an adult?

To me, that feels like some kind of discrimination. Like what is the difference if I go rape some old lady down the street, or someone's kid? It's still disgusting and immoral. But for some reason since it's the "innocence of a child" that I've ruined, it makes it so much worse. Fuck that! Yes there are some circumstances where you can say that the child is more vulnerable and defenseless (I thought that was the draw to it?) but the child should be under someone's care and therefore being protected!

Anyways. Back to my drama. Some background information here.... I have a friend. We used to spend every single day together. We were potheads together, we got along beautifully, we had lots of good times. Then he got a gf who was in fact a mutual friend from school. She was great! Until of course I got to know her more and we hung out with her more often. She's a control freak, who thinks the world of herself. She also thinks she's "so healthy and so intelligent" when in fact she's very much the contrary. Anyways, he had a full time job. He is the kind of guy that doesn't like to eat in front of others if they're not eating. So, he'd often buy me food. There's not much I could do to repay the guy of course, other than being a friend. Over time, he's moved out and the two of them own a house together. They generally don't have time for me. Granted, I don't call them much, but who wants to call someone to listen to them talk to each other? Now, in his house he's remodelling a room in the basement specifically for her. I've gone over there on a few occasions to help him out. In the summer, I spent an entire day in the sun no less helping him cut down a tree. He asks me for help, and I oblige. Now, I recently had a conversation with a mutual friend where my other friends girlfriend was quoted saying "I don't really want adam in this house anymore. He only comes over if he's getting something for free." ......... alot went off in my mind when I heard this. Nothing very nice of course. But in the end I'm most likely just going to let things die. I have other things to worry about... and I'm going to stop this entry since it's getting huge. I have other things I could say, but i'll save it for now. Remember to answer my question!

Sniffles Suck

Sat, 31 Jan 2004 18:26:35 GMT

Seems that people around here have enough energy and time to take out of their day in order to take something of mine and either hide it, or throw it in the garbage. Which was my candle, funky looking or not, it was MY candle. It also happened to be sitting right beside a dirty dish, and some garbage of their own. Could they make the effort to say, take the dish upstairs... or maybe throw out the garbage that was theirs? Not the item that they felt was garbage? Of course not. That would be intelligent... or possibly, considerate! I'm going to check around to see if I can find it, but I'm certain they've put it outside in the trash already so that I can't go and get it back. Looks like I will just have to abscond with a dollar of their's and purchase another.

In other news, the club here is dead. Meaning I have no place to go and dance tonight, which is very very annoying. Supposedly my friends are having a party at their house instead, but we'll just see how that goes and if they even call me. Maybe I'll finally get someone to fix my hair for me, since it's looking rather hideous. Warm as the fuzz may be, I dislike it greatly. I think it's about time I went and had me a little breakfast. Then maybe some jello. At least that's something a certain fat fuck won't devour within 24 hours of it's creation.

It's also come to my attention that something is most definitely wrong with me. Just like before, I couldn't tell you what it is, but it's just something. A feeling I have, that something is either missing or askew. Last time I started taking phosphorous MC for it, and it seemingly worked. I'm having my doubts that it was the exact remedy I was looking for though. Back to the drawing board??

Speaking of the drawing board.. I really do have motivational issues. All I have to do is draw a stinkin' little picture of something, and write a tiny little story. Can I put forth the effort to get it done? Of course not..... Adam the procrastinating loser.... Yeah. There's a million things that I want done in my head. That's generally where they end up staying too. Yep. My brother's here. I go now.

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 03:15:35 GMT

It seems crap comes in threes. I'm rather delirious, and snotty. Being sick is no fun... May I also add that the club here is closed down temporarily, which sucks. Now I have nowhere to do my dancing! I'm going to pass out so good tonight when I get to bed! oh you just wait... on that note. It seems I no longer have plans for valentine's day. I need more cinnamon hearts. I'd rant about some stuff, but keeping sentences together is difficult in this state. Why am I not being snuggled right now

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 08:37:53 GMT

Dear Diary:

Hhahahahahha..... Why am I always right about everything? Can I sense people that well? Am I honestly clairvoyant? Yet again my choices ~~in life~~ have failed me. How can you save another when you can't help yourself? Did you honestly expect it to happen? Fool. You're obviously here for ~~something else.~~ Someone else. Go. Take. They deserve not what they have. Power doesn't grow on trees. A cleansing must occur. -end incrimination.

Jesus Fucking Christ

Wed, 28 Jan 2004 00:50:36 GMT

Know what really pisses me off about people sometimes? How they think that just because something is in the house, therefore it's fair game for anyone to use. You don't use other people's things without asking - it's RUDE. Especially when you're a disgusting fat fucking pig and you ruin things. Do I look like a 250 lb piece of shit? No I didn't think so. "Oh, he's sleeping, so it's okay if we use his ____"
I had taken a nap in hopes of getting rid of this feeling, but waking up to things like that just doesn't seem to help matters. I'm going to go eat and wallow in this mood some more.